We have came so far in 4 years.

The final I should have submitted by midnight, a few hours ago just opened it seems the professor got busy and forgot to open it on the lovely blackboard site. We have more time however; I have another test to do tomorrow and one in class on Monday morning. This messed my plan all up. On the bright side McKenzie is sleeping well. Her temp got up to 103.6, nothing like a cool bath and a mad kid at midnight. We finally got the fever to break. Her blood sugar has been amazingly perfect. I think it is because we are watching so close because of the fever. She yelled at CC in her sleep “why won’t you give me my peanut butter and jelly sandwich?” CC grabbed her meter and said “mom you should check her she is off dreaming about P&J again”. Her sugar was 125, perfect, but her temp was too high 103.4. I am just venting for a minute because I am tired of studying or worrying. We made it to the Christmas Parade. We went early in order to park the car facing the street. Kenzie was doing ok she was so sad when she thought we would have to skip it. It is a bit of a double whammy for her. 4 years ago the 4 of us went to the Miracle on 34th Christmas Parade for the 3rd time. This was already setting more of a lasting pattern or tradition than the girls or I had experienced. Things had been pretty unpredictable up till then. We were comfy in our house that we had been in for longer than we had lived in any one place probably ever. Things were calm and seemed to be right on track. We enjoyed a couple of cups of hot chocolate at the parade mostly to keep warm. As Santa went by McKenzie laid on the curb against her sister. She smiled and waved but never got up. On the way home her tummy got sick. She became violently ill and we could not get anything to calm it down. We ended up in Pedi ICU that night and were first told and made to understand what Type 1 Diabetes was and that children could in fact get it. That was the scariest two weeks of my life. I had just started school at Texas Tech. It was the week of final exams. I did not know I could explain to the professor that my 6 year old daughter was in Pedi ICU. I got what I could done and failed the rest. I failed all the finals but only one of the classes. I retook that class with the same professor. I told her what had been going on and she acted hurt that I had not come and told her what was going on. Here we are, 4 years later. I am still up at 2:30am. McKenzie has had a fever and this has not happened in over a year. I am a ball of nerves because my sweet baby girl is sick. She is not in the hospital she is dealing with normal stuff that kids deal with. So why am I so worried? I guess it is easier to worry about her fever that she no longer has then to think of how close we came to not having her here with us. I thank the Lord every single day for having McKenzie and Cynthia here with us. I also thank him for putting Kevin in our life. I could not have asked for a more caring, creative, and supportive partner to love and protect us. He is truly my best friend. The girls are blessed to have him. They trust, respect and love him, which is the most wonderful thing in the world. I will graduate in 6 days! My #1 quote is “you can do anything if you never give up.” I have to say though; I could have never gotten this far without the love and encouragement of Kevin and our girls. The three of you are everything to me. I love you and will always be here for you no matter what ever happens in this crazy world. We are a team and the world better look out.



Sick but at the Christmas Parade 2010.














Christmas Lunch at Wheelock 2010





Mommy Love and Christmas Lights.





 

Texas Tech Carol of Lights 2010