Hard Mommy Day.

How do you explain to an 11 year old that the choices they make today will negatively affect their health when they get older. I am extremely thankful that we are going to see Dr. Varma tomorrow. Miss. McKenzie is in need of a reality check and I am not getting through to her. I dislike talking about complications that uncontrolled blood sugars cause. I will set aside my protective mommy instinct and break it all down for her however. I love her so much and do not want her to ever have to miss out on anything. I am confident that when she gets a little older she will understand how important good control is and why I am being so “mean”. She decided at bedtime last night, she wanted a snack. Well when she checked her blood sugar she was over 300 so she bolused for 30 carbs and gave herself 4.3 units of insulin without telling anyone. She got distracted and never went to eat anything. I had no clue she had given herself so much or that she had snacked an hour earlier and also bolused for that. CC took me aside and said that she thought Kenzie had done something with her pump. We went through her pump and realized what all she had done. I spent the entire night checking her and giving her milk and cookies in her sleep because she kept going low. She was exhausted for school this morning. I would never ever complain about staying up to check her but I cannot allow her to be dangerous with her pump. As much as I dislike the thought, we may be looking at going back to shots for a bit if we cannot get this under control. We have never had to punish her or even really get on to her at all. She has always taken the lead role in fighting this. We have been her backup. This is scary and I do not like it at all. I don’t know what the best response for her is. At this point she is grounded from the computer and the phone. That was really hard for me to do only because it has to do with something she did not choose to have to deal with. I am venting at this point. Any suggestions would be appreciated. I could cry but that is not what she needs from me. She needs expectations and motivation. Oh parenting is hard but some days it is ugly. McKenzie if you read this someday I pray that you are healthy and still as strong and stubborn as you are right now.